I have a lot of feelings

[altogetherisi]

 aka, memes are a great way of procrastinating.

10 things you want to say to 10 people right now

1. I expected it, but it still hurts to be so cleanly separated out from your life. I don't even blame you or take it personally. But I miss you, and it hurts that you don't miss me.

2. I cannot believe how badly I apparently misjudged our "friendship". I thought we were brain twins, that we were platonic soul mates, that this friendship would become such an integral part of my life. And now I don't even know if I'll still be friends with you when I next see you, forget in 20 years time.

3. I like you, and I think you are a lot of fun, but I'm starting to find myself wishing you weren't sleeping around so much. I don't want to say anything to you, because it's your body and you should absolutely be free to use and enjoy it as much and however you want, and you do seem to be enjoying yourself, and I don't think less of you because of the sex itself. But I think some of the people you are attracting casually with little regard on your part really like you, and that you are sending them mixed and hurtful messages and that it's not fair on them. Also, I am totally jealous.

4. Don't you think this has gone on long enough? Stop it. Grow up.

5. I'm so over you! Oh, by the way, I was so into you.

6. I love and appreciate your friendship so much. So much I think it might be weird to try to express to you. It's not weird, you are just awesome, and I wish we spent more time together. You are the best.

7. I feel left out, and I'm not sure how to win you over to liking and including me.

8. I'm sorry for what I did to you, how I treated you. I shouldn't have done that, and given the option to go back and change things I would absolutely be better to you. I'm sorry, I really am.

9. You know what I think? I think you should have kissed me. I think we should be dating. I think if you gave us a chance I would surprise you at being just what you want and need. I think you should text me first, and I think you should buy me a drink, and I think you should kiss me. I think you should look back at me. I think you should care about what I think.

10. You rock. Thank you for everything you've done for me, continue to do for me, and know you will do for me in the future. I don't know what I'd do without you. You mean so much to me.

Feelings, I haz them.

Comments

[bearodactyl.livejournal.com]

Some of these are so juicy that I wish I knew the backstory.

[altogetherisi.livejournal.com]

Ha :P Ask if you want, the worst you'll get is a "no comment"!

[hanelissar.livejournal.com]

<3

I hate how curious I get when people post memes like this, I am so so nosy! I love you, and I am sorry some of these are not happy. :( Especially the friendship ones - friends stopping being friends totally breaks my heart. Even if it's a good thing. *hugs*

Love you!
xxxx

[altogetherisi.livejournal.com]

You are very welcome to ask questions if you want to - as I say, the worst you'd get is a "no comment" :) Love you too!

[arkeiryn.livejournal.com]

So I can ask who is everyone you're talking about, then? :P Actually, 1, 2, 3, 8 and 9 seem the most interesting to me... :P

But more seriously, some of those things suck *hugs* hope number 2 gets sorted out, and number 7.

*gives cookies*

[everworld2662.livejournal.com]

I love this meeeeme.

I think if I hadn't been trying not to write it, an equivalent to your 9 would have been, like, half of my list. 9 and 8 D: GOD DAMMIT PEOPLEEEE XD

The friends ones break my heart for you a little, though. /hug

[laliandra.livejournal.com]

:) I like the mix. I do hope number 9 (which I find extremely prettily written) comes to their senses. Come on, 9, you are missing out!

Do you think that your friendship drifted or that maybe there is something to be done, re 2? The end of friendships makes me D:

Also, in the spirit of the meme, you rock x

[altogetherisi.livejournal.com]

I did want a mix, but I picked the ten people within about ten seconds so it's also pretty much a snapshot of who I've been thinking about recently. I suppose really I approached it as "10 things I want to say to 10 people right now but feel that I can't".

Oh number 9. Sigh. Come on number 9, I like you. I somewhat ship us. Get with the program. Number 2, realistically I think there could in fact be plenty of room for us to heal this and continue to be friends in the future, but at the moment I've been feeling increasingly bitter and hurt there. Just, I valued that friendship so incredibly highly, and now I feel like 2 just doesn't value me as highly, and that hurts. We could totally get past this, but right now from my end at least this is a rough patch.

Some of these people are the reason I now find myself scribbling narcissistic song lyrics in Starbucks while not doing my Nano. Le sigh.

You're awesome :) xx