Jul. 7th, 2013 11:52 am
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oh my god you guys, he did it

and in straight sets

it was so beautiful

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

oh hi

Jun. 28th, 2013 10:00 am
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I miss LJ/DW and I miss semi-regular blogging (and I think it's good for me, because I keep writing diaryish bits and pieces in the notebook that is supposed to be for writing, ha) so I'm going to try to be around a bit more the second half of this year. And also, just to be a bit more present and involved in my whole actual life. Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

I have been super stressed out, mood swingy and miserable lately, highlights including sobbing for like an hour in my bathroom, but now I'm hoping that stuff is over and done with and I can enjoy the rest of 2013 rather a lot more. I am happy and serene and excited about the future. 

I'm home from uni (and also Devon) now. I'm going to America on Tuesday SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM so that's cool. yep. Let me know if you would like a postcard :D

Still very slowly writing. Progress is glacier slow but existent. As per.

How have you been?
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Dec. 31st, 2012 06:40 pm
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 2012 was a weird year.

The lows were really, really low. Like, seriously, this year probably contains about two or three of the worst moments of my life ever.

But the positives were pretty great, if sometimes sparse. And I'm ending in a much better place than I begun the year.

So. Here's to the upswing continuing in 2013.


Dec. 3rd, 2012 11:18 am
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 I'm home. Aaaaah.

I don't have an advent calendar (yet? I hope) but the Christmas music has been cracked. 

Another year, another failed Nano. But, I feel really good about myself anyway - I wrote more this year than in previous years, despite also having a not inconsiderable workload and generally having a lot of other stuff to do. I wrote so much that two of my good pens have now run out, and the nice notebook I thought would last all year probably won't see next term. Yes, I was almost entirely writing by hand and then typing it up. Which takes quite a lot of time, but seems to work out with productivity being up overall for me, so yeah. Some of what I wrote isn't very good, but certain passages I am rather pleased with. It has left me feeling positive and keen to keep going, even at this very slow current pace, rather than burnt out and not wanting anything to do with writing. So, yeah. Happy.

I have quite a lot (read: LOADS) of work to do this holiday so I need to um, make sure I actually do it. So many books to read! But my immediate concern is to relax and see some friends and figure out what to do about my family and also, I really want to catch up on TV haha. 

Happy December guys!

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 So I have been listening to lots of new music lately. Well, some of it is only new to me, but hush. 

Alt-J, Django Django, Taylor Swift, Ellie Goulding, Tom Odell, Foxes and One Direction! )

What are you guys listening to?
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 What passing-bells for these who die as cattle? 
Only the monstrous anger of the guns. 
Only the stuttering rifles' rapid rattle 
Can patter out their hasty orisons.
No mockeries now for them; no prayers nor bells; 
Nor any voice of mourning save the choirs, –
The shrill, demented choirs of wailing shells; 
And bugles calling for them from sad shires.
What candles may be held to speed them all? 
Not in the hands of boys but in their eyes 
Shall shine the holy glimmers of goodbyes. 
The pallor of girls' brows shall be their pall; 
Their flowers the tenderness of patient minds, 
And each slow dusk a drawing-down of blinds.
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 So I'm waiting for US election news. Polls will start to close in about 6 hours. I think Obama will win, and obviously I desperately hope he will, but I am concerned. It's a concerning time. We're all a bit anxious. I'm going to stay up all night to watch it unfold, like I did last time. Four years ago. Four years ago, a brief while, so long ago and yet really not at all. I had my first drink in a pub to celebrate Obama's election. I had just turned 18, I had just started receiving uni offers. 

Now I'm 22, and I'm back at uni. Hmmm.


I'm doing Nano, and I am attempting to finish The Misfit Witch. Good girl. Finish haha that's a scary word. I doubt it, I'm already rather behind. But I'm trying, I'm totally trying. I am definitely definitely going to finish Part 1, that's my real vow. And then have a decent crack at Part 2. Mert Mert Mert mostly. But today, a bit of Tawn and Burg, because I couldn't focus and could only write tiny flighty fragments. Tchuh.


I keep going to London at the weekends. I went the Sunday before my birthday, to see Jay Brannan with hanelissar. That was really fun - obviously Jay is one of my absolute favs, and Han hadn't been to see him live before, and beforehand we had plenty of lovely drinks and a jolly good time. Er, the next morning wasn't brilliant though. I have never been so concerned that I might actually be sick on a train. Not my finest moment. Stay classy self. On the plus side, the universe gave me a free (ie abandoned on the train, so I kept) copy of The Casual Vacancy which is cool because I was curious about it but not enough to actually buy it. Haven't read much of it yet, but bear with. Oh and that morning I had a woman taxi driver, and her taxi was really comfortable, and she was really nice, and I felt so awful but she was so nice, it really struck me.

The week after that I went back for the day on Saturday to see my brother and my dad and celebrate my birthday. We all had various travels issues but we eventually found each other and had a really good meal and some fucking amazing cake and it was a lovely day.

And this last weekend I went to see my friends A and A, to celebrate the birthday of one of the A at the other A's house. They both brought their boyfriends, and we had dinner, and then when to a goth club. All night. Now, when the idea of an "all night goth rave" was first mentioned to me, I had assumed this was hyperbole. It was not. The last tube, people who don't know London, is just before midnight generally. We set off at midnight. We got a bus at quarter to one. We got to the club a bit before 2am. And we stayed until kicking out time at 7.45am. oh my god. It took a few hours to grow on me, because I was kinda tired and cold and a bit grumpy at first, but then (morning person ahoy) about 5am I suddenly woke up and started really enjoying myself. So that was good fun.

When we left the club, it was raining heavily, and none of us had umbrellas, and I didn't have a proper coat, or even proper clothes really because hello clubbing, and we walked for about 15 minutes through this rain and omg November morning, cold cold cold wet wet wet. That was not pleasant. But! Once we had got finally made it back to A's house, looking like a collection of tired, drowned goth rats, I got to dry off and put on warm clothes, and then one of A's flatmates turned out to be an incredible angel of a flatmates because he didn't even know us and, I can't overstate how amazing this was, he made us bacon and egg sandwiches, and proper coffee. You may have read that, but you don't fully understand: he went out to the shops to buy us food, and then he cooked it for us, and he kept bringing us more, and seriously, I almost started crying because I'd been awake for about 30 hours and it was so amazing.

Then I crawled back here and slept through a lot of day and woke up in the middle of the night and completely through off my sleeping pattern but it doesn't matter because there's always tumblr isn't there.


I just started watching the Lizzie Bennet Diaries! They're good so far, definitely enjoying and would recommend. I'm not doing all that well at fandom otherwise. But that's ok. I'm still around online more than I thought I would be tbh, and frankly it will probably go down because hello essays, but yeah. I was worried I'd just drop away entirely. 

I still haven't seen Skyfall. I might just go by myself. 
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 It's my birthday! I'm 22 today. 

Wow. Definitely not a child any longer. What happened haha. The age so many people seem to want to go back to. I suppose I'd better try to make it good then :)
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Another set of stairs meet my suitcases, another fight to the death with my fitted sheet, another not very good yet internet connection. I promise the big how-my-life-works-now post is coming. Soon. Probably Monday.


 So there's this girl.

I don't think she can read this, but if I've forgotten something and somehow she can - well, hi. I've been thinking about you.

I've talked about her here before, because we went to school together and were very good friends. We stayed close that first year after school, but then the last year or so we've drifted. I don't think we aren't friends anymore, I just think we haven't had much to say to each other. I'm certain that if we were physically nearer and able to see each other more often than once or twice a year we would remain close. The last time I saw her, months ago, I hadn't seen her for months before that, but we fit together still.

Anyway, I really miss her. And I was thinking, you know, you have to put effort into relationships, any kind of relationship. If it's worth keeping, it's worth tending. And I was thinking, I need some way to reach out to her.

And then, it hit me. I suddenly realised that the last couple of weeks, she's been reaching out to me. And I'm a complete idiot. I thought it was coincedence. But no, now I look at it, I think she has been making an effort toward me. And I don't need to reach out. I just need to reach back.

I feel a little weird about it. 


Nano is approaching, and I think it would be wise of me to give it a miss this year, but I totally don't want to, so I might sign up and cheerfully fail once again anyway. Or maybe I'll try something like Nano, but not Nano, like writing a poem every day for November or something? IDK. I ought to buckle down and make some headway on The Misfit Witch. I keep thinking about the other books I want to write, how it might be nice to have a go at something fresh. What is everyone thinking?


Summer wasn't great this year, but I'm now starting to think about next year. Which currently, cautiously, provisionally, looks a bit like this: LA, CA -> Austin, Texas -> New York City, New York. Yeeeeeah. 

Who has thoughts and advice about either Austin or New York? I. know. nothing.
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 So yesterday I saw Untouchable, and it was really good. There hasn't been all that much publicity for it over here that I've noticed, but I hope some buzz builds up for it because I thought it was really charming.

It's a French film, based on a true story, about the friendship that develops between a young black guy who is an unemployed working class ex con, and the very rich, cultured, older white guy who is paralysed from the neck down that hires him as his care giver. It sounds kinda madcap doesn't it? But while a lot of it was funny, it definitely took its premise seriously, and that helped - the culture clashes could be funny for what they were, not because one side was mocking or cruel toward the other. But yeah, I found it very charming. There were many laugh out loud moments, and a few that were very touching. And a couple of "oh my god!" gaspy moments. On reflection, I think it was nice that neither character tried to change each other really, they just brought out the best in each other. And even when they each thought the other was weird, there was still an underlying respect there. The subplots of their respective family troubles and stuttering attempts at romance were sweet and well balanced, adding other dimensions to the main characters without distracting from the point of the film; that both these people were real, and whole, and had problems and made jokes and made each others' lives better.

It didn't pass the Bechdel test, but obvs it won very high in intersectional stakes; hello, entire movie. And the women that were featured I think were done well. I was happy with it. A couple of the characters said a couple of problematic things, but that was part of them as real, flawed characters and didn't reflect on the actual story the film was telling.

Overall, it was enjoyable and touching, funny and sad and insightful. Go see it!


Untouchable had trailers for two films I hadn't heard of and tbh I am outraged that the internet had some how failed to tell me of their existence because they both a) feature awesome ladies I am a fan of and b) actually look like they are going to be good films. Yes I realise not knowing your darling had made entire films suggests I am not that good a fan but SHUT UP I trust the internet to tell me these things and it didn't so now my faith is shaken, SHAKEN I TELL YOU.

Anyway, what nobody deigned to tell me was that a) awesome Kristen Stewart is in an adaptation of On The Road, which I keep meaning to read, oops, which also has Kirsten Dunst, another of my faves, god I bet people getting Kristen and Kirsten mixed up was terrible on this film, and it looked good, and also b) that JENNIFER LAWRENCE who I really trusted my dash would have told me about but nooooo has made a film called Silver Linings Playbook, which seems a stupid name but whatever, who cares, because it is a film about two not-entirely-well-adjusted-mentally people who IDK meet and help each other grow and maybe date or something. The trailer didn't make it clear whether they were depressed or something else but these are people who happily discussing their medication history with each other aka OMG MY INTEREST IS PIQUED.

Sure, OK, they are both still middle class white people but ssssh because Hollywood is trying you guys it has made a film where the heroes are not mentally normative that I fully expect will have a happy ending (and if it doesn't I'mma cry) and did I mention JENNIFER LAWRENCE so yay.
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 In a post which may make me seem weird and old and old fashioned, I shall begin by lamenting that a) I need a new phone and b) I do not understand phones these days. To be honest, I only just understood phones when I last bought one, and that was in like 2008, just before everyone decided that the iPhone actually wasn't bizarre and stupid and everyone bought one and never puts them down.

So. I would appreciate any help.

I am seeking:
~ something that I can use twitter on
~ and whatsapp, I hear all the cool kids use whatsapp
~ and maybe google maps for when I am lost
~ something fairly shiny lbr
~ with a half decent battery life

I am not hugely fussed about the camera, or the ability to play music or video, although having the ability on occasion might be nice.

I would like to get something super cheap. Like, super cheap. Whether this means the cheapest contracts available, or buying a mildly expensive handset that is still on PAYG (can you even *do* PAYG with wifi stuff? IDEK that is how ignorant I have become.) I am not sure. I feel bizarrely nervous about being trapped in a contract, despite obviously having my last phone for four years which is bloody old for a phone. 


Do you have recommendations? Or brands to avoid? Do you have advice?

Heads Up

Sep. 26th, 2012 06:56 pm
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 Dear People Who Like Me,

It is my birthday in four weeks. How exciting! If you like me enough to wish to give me something and don't want to spend any money, last year certain people gave me music mixes for my birthday, and they were some of my very favourite presents. So. Just a thought... 


Sep. 13th, 2012 10:42 am
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It's bright and sunny outside, still, but it's noticeably colder than it's been, and while it's still light when I wake up (fairly early!) in the mornings, it's definitely getting darker earlier. It was properly dark at 8pm yesterday. Seasons are changing. Remember how it rained and rained and rained, but then suddenly got sunny and warm just when the Olympics started? Like the weather was on best behaviour. And then, the first day after the Olympians and Paralympians (and Gamesmakers!) had their victory parade, which was the last London 2012 event, the very day after the Paralympics closed, it got cold. Like it was waiting. 

I love autumn, but I don't feel ready for it. This summer has been so unusual, so stressful. Not going to Greece is very odd.


I haven't updated here much lately, and when I have, it's mostly been private entries. LJ/DW has slowed down a lot since tumblr came along, and that's strange, and a bit of a shame. I love tumblr, of course, but it has rather different strengths and weaknesses to LJ, and fandom would be best IMO if both platforms were vibrant and used to the best abilities. Community is something very different on tumblr. "Stay out of our tag" certain people on tumblr say, and I want to shout "make an LJ comm for yourselves! lock the membership! you'll be happier!" IDK maybe they have. Fic, too, really doesn't work on tumblr, but tumblr really is great for advertising your fic. And friendships - tumblr is fun, but it's the cool things you stick up on your locker and the notes you pass around class. It isn't the best place to actually get to know someone, what's going on in their lives, what their really thoughts are like. 

I'm gonna keep posting here, unless something other than slow down stops me. I started this journal before I had internet friends that might leave a comment, so even if all of you guys disappear, I think I'll keep on. At least, that won't be the reason I stop. 


 My life is gonna change a bit in the next week or so. I won't know which path I'm taking until it's happening, but a fork is coming. I'll write about it when I know what's happening, rather than just "change is coming". Limbo is weird. Purgatory.  


At the moment, I want to write and read more than I'm actually getting to. I blame stress. Trying to force stuff you love never works as well as coming to it naturally.

I honestly can't tell whether The Misfit Witch is actually good, but I'm really determined to finish it. I don't care how long it takes me anymore - I want to finish writing a book, and I want it to be this book. Maybe I'll finish it during Nano this year.

My head has rather different gears for writing Tawn and Mert too, and it goes into Tawn more often, but stays longer in Mert once it gets there. Odd. I wonder whether other people who write split narratives feel like that. 

It only occurred to me this morning than instead of worldbuilding one world I've kinda accidentally made myself worldbuild three worlds in one, and that's one of the reasons it is such a big task. It's quite a small story, this first book, but there is so much to introduce the reader to, and figuring out how that all slots together, what the reader actually needs to know to understand, is... well, it isn't difficult exactly, but it takes thought. This book tells (only!) two stories, from two points of view, but it has six main characters meeting and interacting across three worlds, and it is actually a touch complex. I'll get there. Not because I have to, but because I truly do want to.

Then you can read it and laugh at me :P


How has everyone been lately?
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 I met antistar_e on Saturday! She was, of course, utterly lovely :D I was a tiny bit worried to start with, because neither of us knew what each other looked like which makes picking someone out at a train station a touch daunting - after surreptitiously glancing at a few people, she approached me - of course she was the first person I had considered! We spent the day casually, just walking around town and talking with occasional breaks for cake and alcohol. It was nice :)


This low level but relentless stress is difficult to deal with. I feel like I hardly have any space or time for myself, which makes me tired and grumpy and aggressive. I also have a particular nagging irritation that comes from not writing when I really want to. I need to write. But for that I need time and space and to be basically happy, at least a bit. I can't function long term like this. Every time I can get a couple of hours to myself its feels like a victory I need to guard jealously. But I won't be able to feel like a proper person again until I can breathe, until I can have a few days to myself. 


Still loving the Olympics. It's so inspiring, even events I had no idea about before. People giving their everything to really try to be the best at something, to better their own best. It's brilliant. And yes, it helps that Team GB is doing quite well :D The BBC coverage is seriously brilliant though, I hope they keep the internet streams up after it is all finished so I can watch more things I haven't had time to catch up on yet! 


I finally listened to One Direction's album, which I downloaded ages ago but then was too ashamed to actually listen to. It's OK, probably B+ IMO, better than I was expecting. My favourite songs are Tell Me A Lie, Taken, I Want and Na Na Na I think. Mostly I can only hear three sounds though; I hear a) Harry Styles' voice b) a voice which isn't Harry Styles' which I am guessing is Liam's, but who knows tbh, it could be more than one of the others, allI know is that it isn't Harry and c) general One Direction chorus. So most of the time my brain goes "Harry! Not Harry! Oh there's Harry again!" It's cool though.
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 I can't stop watching the Olympics!

I've been fairly skeptical about London hosting for the whole 7 years of build up - it's meant for other people, it's ridiculously expensive,  it would mess up the summer, wtf is that weird red tower thing all about, why does that football club want to destroy the Olympic stadium before it's even been used, that logo is hideous, those mascots are bizarre, the ticketing system is too convoluted, we'll never beat Beijing's opening ceremony...

Oh wait. 

Oh yeah bitches, our Opening Ceremony was freaking awesome. Like, so so good. It made me insanely happy, grinning my face off and shrieking with delight and gasping in amazement and tearing up at the beauty of the cauldron. Utterly perfect.

And now it is day 3, and seriously, apart from like chores, the only thing I've done the last two days is watch the Olympics. So many sports. Plenty of sports I don't understand the rules of. I think I've just about figured out the basics of Judo and Water Polo; the precise aims of Dressage still elude me but it's so lovely to watch - smartly dressed people on gorgeous dancing horses! Amazing. And I have watched tonnes and tonnes of gymnastics, my absolute fav. Yay gymnastics!!

Go Team GB!
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 Here is a pairings meme ganked from Elizabeth!

NB: One of the pairings mentioned is from ASOIAF and involves a character introduced in ADWD, whose mere existence might be considered a spoiler. No actual plot spoilers beyond this person being alive, but um, it's a plot twist, so. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

Pairings Meme! )

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 I am LOVING the weather at the moment. Bright, warm sun edging into hot, the sunglasses and summer dresses are getting some use, finally! We had a very wet spring, I am glad to get to do some basking.

lc2l wrote
 a really good Avengers fic, When I Say Jump which I betaed. It is massively spoilery for the movie, and it is Loki/Clint, and so there are consent issues, and it is really rather excellent, so you should all go read it and tell her how awesome she is. 

I love Adam Lambert's new album, Trespassing! )

And also, Electra Heart by Marina and the Diamonds <3 )

Eurovision was last night. Embarrassed by how many songs I genuinely liked and how into it I got haha. Sweden were fair winners. I have a list of my top ten, but I'll spare you. Suffice to say my favourite was Turkey, with the boat. Inexplicably addicted to it. Creys for Slovakia not getting through to the final.


Writing is slow at the moment, but happening. ) 
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 So I've seen The Avengers twice now - once in 3D with J, once in 2D with branquignole. It's great! I thought I ought to write something about it before it comes out in America tomorrow lol. It's been really nice having something first for once! 

Basically, it gave me crazy feels that it was hard to make coherent, and I really really liked it (hence going to see it twice in 4 days!) which is good because can you imagine how much it was would sucked if it, well, sucked? It's only been like 4 years of build up god.

Spoilers for The Avengers! )

What did you guys think?
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Yesterday I read Catching Fire.

Spoilery thoughts about Catching Fire )

Mockingjay, in the edition I went out of my way to buy, has my favourite cover. So beautiful. I didn't let myself read the blurb until I'd finished Catching Fire, but I have gazed at it for long time. Longer than I've wanted to read the books. It's so lovely.

And now, to read it.


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