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altogetherisi) wrote2012-10-20 12:57 pm
altogetherisi) wrote2012-10-20 12:57 pm
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Life, or something like it
Another set of stairs meet my suitcases, another fight to the death with my fitted sheet, another not very good yet internet connection. I promise the big how-my-life-works-now post is coming. Soon. Probably Monday.
*
So there's this girl.
I don't think she can read this, but if I've forgotten something and somehow she can - well, hi. I've been thinking about you.
I've talked about her here before, because we went to school together and were very good friends. We stayed close that first year after school, but then the last year or so we've drifted. I don't think we aren't friends anymore, I just think we haven't had much to say to each other. I'm certain that if we were physically nearer and able to see each other more often than once or twice a year we would remain close. The last time I saw her, months ago, I hadn't seen her for months before that, but we fit together still.
Anyway, I really miss her. And I was thinking, you know, you have to put effort into relationships, any kind of relationship. If it's worth keeping, it's worth tending. And I was thinking, I need some way to reach out to her.
And then, it hit me. I suddenly realised that the last couple of weeks, she's been reaching out to me. And I'm a complete idiot. I thought it was coincedence. But no, now I look at it, I think she has been making an effort toward me. And I don't need to reach out. I just need to reach back.
I feel a little weird about it.
*
Nano is approaching, and I think it would be wise of me to give it a miss this year, but I totally don't want to, so I might sign up and cheerfully fail once again anyway. Or maybe I'll try something like Nano, but not Nano, like writing a poem every day for November or something? IDK. I ought to buckle down and make some headway on The Misfit Witch. I keep thinking about the other books I want to write, how it might be nice to have a go at something fresh. What is everyone thinking?
*
Summer wasn't great this year, but I'm now starting to think about next year. Which currently, cautiously, provisionally, looks a bit like this: LA, CA -> Austin, Texas -> New York City, New York. Yeeeeeah.
Who has thoughts and advice about either Austin or New York? I. know. nothing.
*
So there's this girl.
I don't think she can read this, but if I've forgotten something and somehow she can - well, hi. I've been thinking about you.
I've talked about her here before, because we went to school together and were very good friends. We stayed close that first year after school, but then the last year or so we've drifted. I don't think we aren't friends anymore, I just think we haven't had much to say to each other. I'm certain that if we were physically nearer and able to see each other more often than once or twice a year we would remain close. The last time I saw her, months ago, I hadn't seen her for months before that, but we fit together still.
Anyway, I really miss her. And I was thinking, you know, you have to put effort into relationships, any kind of relationship. If it's worth keeping, it's worth tending. And I was thinking, I need some way to reach out to her.
And then, it hit me. I suddenly realised that the last couple of weeks, she's been reaching out to me. And I'm a complete idiot. I thought it was coincedence. But no, now I look at it, I think she has been making an effort toward me. And I don't need to reach out. I just need to reach back.
I feel a little weird about it.
*
Nano is approaching, and I think it would be wise of me to give it a miss this year, but I totally don't want to, so I might sign up and cheerfully fail once again anyway. Or maybe I'll try something like Nano, but not Nano, like writing a poem every day for November or something? IDK. I ought to buckle down and make some headway on The Misfit Witch. I keep thinking about the other books I want to write, how it might be nice to have a go at something fresh. What is everyone thinking?
*
Summer wasn't great this year, but I'm now starting to think about next year. Which currently, cautiously, provisionally, looks a bit like this: LA, CA -> Austin, Texas -> New York City, New York. Yeeeeeah.
Who has thoughts and advice about either Austin or New York? I. know. nothing.
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Maybe that’s something to consider?
*chinhands for the big how-Isi’s-life-works post*
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But IDK. I wrote a big chunk earlier this year and then everything this summer was crazy and I wasn't in the mood and I don't know whether I can force the mood to come back just because it's November. You have to understand I have been trying to write this stupid story for five years, and most of that has been me waiting to feel in the correct mood to write words.
Meanwhile, idea after idea queue around my brain, patiently waiting for a crumb of attention. It's so tempting. My secondary project, Shades, was planned over three years ago and I haven't written a word of it, because I'm so faithful to The Misfit Witch.
And it's not really in the spirit of Nano to not be starting from scratch. Hmmmmmm.
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My old writers group used to do, idk, "side-along NaNo", which allowed fresh starts on stuff in progress, or just fresh work on stuff in progress, and shorter stuff, just for the fun of Doing All This Together.
Sometimes starting something new can give perspective on what's blocking the old stuff!
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On the other hand, I suspect my interest in other projects might have something to do with fear of actually completing it and it being bad. Like, if I don't try, I can't fail. And the more progress I make, the more my subconscious freaks.
Hmmmmmm. We'll see.
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