Question meme

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Hi, internet!

I just got back from spending the weekend in France, and in the days preceding that I had Glee, a picnic, punting and Pimms trip... it is a busy time! pretty knackered right now, but DARREN CRISS ON WEDNESDAY OMG OMG.

 

Yay :D

 

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Lal asked me these questions:

 

1. How did you discover fandom?
2. What do you want from S3 of Glee?
3. What fictional character do you most identify with?
4. Can you convince me why ~TDS SHIPPING SPOILER~ is endgame?
5. Where in the world would you like to live, if you live anywhere?

 

1. How did you discover fandom?

I was 13, and the internet was a relatively new thing for me to be able to use both at school and at home. Before fandom, it was for research and simple video games, and endless endless quizzes I remember. Some of which, I now realise, were porny fanfictions in quiz format. Really, really porny actually. Huh. Anyway, so, I was 13, and was revisiting my love for Artemis Fowl, and I found a link which I believe said something like "Can't get enough of Artemis? Click to read more adventures written by fans!" And that took me to FFN. And I dived in with a fierce hunger and never looked back. Obviously now I generally avoid that place, but at the time it was heaven. Absolutely like discovering a goldmine.

2. What do you want from S3 of Glee?

HA. A plotline for Mercedes! More songs for Tina! Most of all - for the writers to actually consult each other and maybe, y'know, watch their own show, and to make something with a bit more consistency of character development and plot arcs that actually, arc. Etc.

 

Specifically, well. I want Brittany and Santana to get together. I want Artie, and Sam, to a lesser extent, to stop being douches and to learn to be better and nicer etc. I am very serious about wanting Mercedes and Tina to get proper plotlines and attention, and I especially want Tina and Santana to sing more because both of them have awesome voices. I want Lauren to continue to be badass. I want Quinn to get a stable personality as a character and stick with it in a way that makes sense, because I love Quinn and Dianna Agron and I don't want her to be reduced to shipping fodder. I want Mike and Tina to stay together - only pairing to survive S2, I'd love it if they made it to graduation (er, if anyone is actually graduating next year? Who knows.) or whatever, another season. I want Emma and Will to get together, and for Emma to discover that she loves sex, even if they can only do it in the shower, or wearing latex or something else really clean. I want Neil Patrick Harris to come back and take his shirt off. I want Rachel and Finn to pull themselves together and either date or not or whatever but somewhere with less melodrama. Well, that's never gonna happen. I want some of these kids to actually study something at school for once.

 

Most of all. Well. I'm not fully sure what I want to happen with Kurt, and Blaine, and Karofsky. I want Darren Criss to still be around and have screen time and songs and stuff, but I fear that if (*cough*) he moves to McKinley (or however that school's name is even written) he will inevitably be a source of drama and his life will be wrecked. I feel like it would be safer for him and the Klaine relationship if they could just take a backseat and go be happy somewhere without the need for plotlines intruding. Can they skip out on school entirely and spend the whole season ordering the perfect coffee for each other and saying they love each other? Please?

 

OK, so. Assuming staying where they are in coffee and relationship heaven isn't an option (*le sigh* If only...). Hmmm. This is what I fear - that the writers will want to break up Kurt/Blaine (somehow, over something, who knows) and then have Kurt/Karofsky date (for a while at least) and then I suppose the easy option would be to eventually have them break up and have Kurt get back together with Blaine. That seems like something they'd go for *wibbles*. And I say this as someone that reads quite a lot of Kurtofsky fic, but I a) simply do not trust the writers to not mess it up were they to actually try to go for Kurtofsky, and also b) I like it, but it's not worth the pain of breaking up Klaine just to become canon. Does that make sense? I hope it does. I have sometimes trouble, with this omnishipping business, of explaining how I can simultaneously ship mutually exclusive things, and how I can ship something and yet not want it to become canon. 

 

SO. I want Karofsky to come out, maybe just to his dad at first? His dad seems nice. I want him to somehow find his own Blaine-like gay mentor/possible first gay relationship. (I think that's highly unlikely - Glee currently has 5 queer teenagers, and that's amazing and wonderful and boy do I wish that wasn't unusual, and as I say, I want them to introduce at least one more so I can ship Karofsky without endangering Klaine, but I don't know whether the show would make the leap. Also, they really like love triangles on this show.) 

BASICALLY I JUST WANT KURT AND BLAINE AND KAROFSKY TO ALL BE OUT AND HAPPY AND STUFF.

 

On which note - I want more gay kisses in general, and more Klaine in particular. And Brittana. I want Darren Criss to take his shirt off, maybe do a scene in a swim suit or a towel or something, that would be nice. I'm caught between tropes on the gay sexuality actually - part of me wants Kurt to develop one (to get away from the whole, gays are ok as long as they aren't actually *doing* anything thing :/ ) but on the other hand, him and Blaine being all romantic and sweet rather than sexy somewhat subverts the whole gays = sex maniacs thing, especially with the interesting juxaposition of Brittany/Santana being sexual toward each other prior to (HOPEFULLY, COME ON WRITERS, COME ON) getting together into a relationship. GIRLS AS SEXUAL BEINGS = A GOOD, NON-WORLD ENDING THING.

 

Oh man, you probably expected bullet points, not an essay. OH WELL. TL;DR:

 

In S3 of Glee I would like

~ Plot
~ Kissing
~ Shirtlessness

 

KTHNX.

 

3. Which fictional character do you most identify with?

LAL THIS IS NOT A FAIR QUESTION I CANNOT POSSIBLY ANSWER IT. 

 

I want to say EVERY CHARACTER ALL OF THEM but really, actually, truly... probably no one. Perhaps that is not the answer you were expecting? I identify a lot - A LOT - with various bits of characters from all over the place, and of course I have more in common with some than others. I can pick out of sets; I'm more Harry than Ron, Hermione or Ginny; I'm mostly Marco with a good dash of Rachel and a splash of Tobias; I'm lots Alan and Gerald; I'm half and half Lydia and Emily, not so much Cassie. (I'm more Mark than Eduardo, Chris or Dustin, but apparently they aren't actually fictional?! What's up with that.)

 

Oh, I could cheat and say my own characters? Except, again, there are bits of me in all of them, but I don't think one is more like me than the others. Which is funny, because it started with a self insert, only I was trying to be ~clever so the self insert wasn't supposed to be isn't the brown haired teenage girl that yearns for magic but hates witches, but one of the other characters. Really though, I can't write a character I don't feel at least a bit of. If they are to come out of me they have to start inside me.

 

ACTUALLY. I am trying to think of times I have gone "OMG THIS BOOK IS ABOUT ME, ACTUALFAX ME!" Off the top of my head though, my brain says a) Quentin from Magicians; and b) the narrator from The Bell Jar, whose name I can't remember but that remains one of my favourite books ever ever ever and which the first time through I had to keep pausing to go "OMG THIS BOOK IS ABOUT MEEEEE!" (Then all the suicide attempts happened, and I was vaguely concerned that I might be triggered into something. Which, uh. Didn't happen. But it was that , um, good?)

 

So, there. A character from a book you didn't like and a character that tries to kill herself rather a lot. Um. Please still like me. Why didn't I just pick, like, IDEK, Martha Jones and move on I have no clue. 

 

4. Can you convince me why Seb/Jamie is endgame?

 

Probably not, but I'll give it a shot :P

 

For the record, I don't see it as necessarily endgame. There isn't any Nineteen Years Later to casually sidestep if you want. They might go on one date and have it not work out or whatever. No pressure.

 

From my side though, a lot of my appreciation for Seb/Jamie is rooted in my liking Seb. Which is apparently unusual, but there you go. See also: Kurtofsky shipping. Anyway, here's what I see. Seb picked on Jamie, possibly to a horrible extent. Seb and Jamie have things in common - they are both magicians, and both gay teenage boys in an environment where this is certainly unusual. But Jamie is secure in a way that Seb fundamentally isn't. Seb is alone and confused. Mae likes to play up the idea that she and Jamie have been somewhat abandoned by their parents, but really they were brought up in an environment with a) at least one parent that given the opportunity was loving and supportive and pretty cool really and b) plenty of money, which isn't a substitute for love but sure doesn't hurt. Most of all, Jamie had Mae, a proactive kickass supportive would-literally-kill-for-you sister. Plus, magician, and one that is pretty powerful even before the whole circle-pet-demon thing. Whatever happened at this school, Jamie comes across as confident and secure in himself.

 

Seb doesn't. Seb has no one to start with - I think he's been in care? (I hope I didn't just, like, make that up...) No one that would miss him if he, oh, moved to London with a bunch of mysterious and most probably not CRB checked magicians. And ok, that's a flippant comment, but if TDL were books about actual drug addiction rather than demons that would perhaps be taken a little more strongly as an indication of Seb's situation. So, Seb has no family, and so I see much of his behaviour as being him trying to find a family unit to be a part of. He hangs out with a particular set of boys at school, he tries to get in with Mae, he goes with the magicians despite being uncomfortable with their actions, and when they don't particularly value him he stays regardless instead of leaving. Where else has he to go anyway? That speaks volumes to me about his past experiences and sense of self worth. 

 

Excuse me, I need to pause and go, awwww my bb Seb. Awww. *hugs* Anyway.

 

So, I see Seb as essentially lost, alone and scared most of the time. His picking on Jamie is not nice, not at all, but it is often a practice of the insecure pack animal - picking on Jamie simultaneously gains the approval of the other guys, and therefore a sense of identity and place in the social hierarchy and thus the inclusion he craves, while also distracting from his own "weaknesses" ie his sexuality by overly pointing it out in Jamie. See also: Karofsky. And like, everyone else ever.

 

OK, so Seb's actual relationship with Jamie. For a (long?) time, Jamie was the only other magician Seb had met, and I think it's fair to suggest that Jamie might very well also have been the only out gay teen Seb had met. Jamie has both these characteristics that Seb has, and this might sound weird but Jamie is better at both of them than Seb is. Effortlessly. Jamie has more magic than Seb, and again it might be an odd concept because, no, you can't actually be better at being gay than someone else, but what I mean is, Jamie is out, Jamie is proud, Jamie has his identity and is secure in it. Jamie does Seb better than Seb does. Jamie is things Seb is too scared to try to be. On top of that, Jamie is cute and Jamie is funny and Jamie is fascinating and Jamie is what Seb wants and Seb is somewhat confused because that other thing he wants, inclusion, has been gained at some effort, and the alienation of Jamie, and it might be lost if he gambles and tries changing and wooing Jamie.

 

The magicians though, are the catalyst - they remove Seb from the environment of school, and they show him the hard way that inclusion at the cost of targeting others is... not so great, if in a slightly more extreme way than he was doing at school. And also, y'know, Jamie's charms are strong in all ways, so. Seb gets it together enough to doing the right thing (and trying to please Jamie) over inclusiveness, and this is a big deal, OK, it really is, and a lot of people never manage to make that leap. 

 

Right, so, so far, Jamie is awesome and Seb likes him, because Jamie is awesome. But why should Jamie be with Seb?

 

Firstly, because what Jamie wants is someone to be really nice to him. I know, I know. Seb hasn't been entirely - or at all - nice to Jamie in the past. But I really see that Seb is devoted to Jamie, even when they aren't dating, even when Jamie is evil, even when Seb gets nothing for it, even when he gets to see Jamie flirt with Gerald, even when his devotion to Jamie leads him away from the magicians. Seb really likes Jamie, and I feel confident that he would treat Jamie really well from the end of TDS onwards. 

 

Secondly, because Seb is actually moral enough to not be down with the killing people thing that was such a deal breaker for Jamie with Gerald.

 

Thirdly, because Seb looks cute, and looks similar to Nick and is therefore perfectly possibly Jamie's type. (It never would have worked with Jamie/Gerald, as my "two blondes shouldn't date" rule demonstrates.)

 

Fourthly, because Jamie is awesome. No, really, he is. And brave, and badass, and cool. And he totally has a crush on the somewhat unattainable powerful older guy in Gerald, or powerful bombshell in Nick, sure. But with Seb, Jamie isn't the one doting, he is the one that gets to be doted upon, as is right and proper. Jamie doesn't have to reach or stretch or change anything that he is for Seb. 

 

So basically. Jamie's awesomeness shows Seb how to be good and conveniently, become just what Jaime has been looking for. They have similar frames of reference and life goals going forward (ie, the happiness of Jaime, morality of magicians, etc.) but their differences bring out the best in and accommodate each other. Which is a pretty good ship I think.

 

5. Where in the world would you like to live, if you (could) live anywhere?

With Darren Criss. 

IN A WRITING CASTLE. OR HOGWARTS. HOGWARTS WHERE I WRITE ALL THE TIME.

 

WITH YOU AND ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS AND ALSO DARREN CRISS, AT HOGWARTS, WHERE MUCH WRITING AND ALSO HILARIOUS HIJINKS OCCUR REGULARLY.

 

(Seriously, at the moment, I am really into America, so my instinctive answer is either New York or LA. Maybe I could mainly live in New York but winter in LA, I hear the New England winters are bitches.)

 

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